THIN DISGUISE

My scars of sanity

are hidden behind

the masks of

reality and insecurity.

A gentle smile

my thin disguise.



This house of cards

I call my home

crashes gracefully

all around me.

Make-up hides

the black eyes

that you

so lovingly gave me.

A gentle smile

my thin disguise.



Ratted out hair

covers the missing clumps

that are entwined

around your fingers

and litter

the kitchen floor.

"Rock-n-roll" clothes,

attitude and swagger

camouflage my limping gait.

A gentle smile

my thin disguise.



Thank God for the Glam.

It hides the crying boy

hidden inside

the broken man.

A gentle smile

my thin disguise.



Your touch is

molding me

into a monster,

blow by blow.

I shouldn't be.

blessed with an

innocent smile,

such a gift

wasted on me.

That gentle smile

my thin disguise.



My body holds

the soul

of the wounded

the angry and

the premature fiend.

A gentle smile

my thin disguise.



The dreamer died

the nightmare born.

The callous hand tires

and the attack

finally ceases.

I'm replacing the thing

you see in that spot

above the bathroom sink.

I never wanted this to be.

A gentle smile

my thin disguise.


I can tell

You're scared to look

You see what lies

ahead for me,

what I will become.

A gentle smile

My thin disguise.


It's apparent and clear

to those

that surround me.

That I am turning

into you.

I've become something

you can't see anymore.

My scars of sanity

are hidden behind

the masks of

reality and insecurity.



A gentle smile



my thin disguise.


And the echo

is afraid to look back at me;

it sees

what has become of me.

When all I see

are the scars

that only I can feel

and the horrors

you have said

aren't at all real.

A gentle smile

my thin disguise.


Memories that never heal,

that never die

mind and spirit

broken and feral.

The beauty fades

and the brute

becomes apparent.

Look past his smile,

that thin disguise

becomes transparent.


My scars of sanity

are hidden behind

the masks of

reality and insecurity.



A gentle smile


my thin disguise.