TWINKLE

Before the dawn came,
I was there.
I was just a tiny thought
a passing fancy
a small twinkle of hope...
"WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN I'M PREGNANT?!?!?!?!  SHIIIIT!!  Is there still time for an abortion?."

The dawn came,
and I greeted you,
we finally meet face to face,
Hello mom...
"That can't be normal, it looks like a fuckin rat...No I don't want to breast feed, that's what formula is for."

At the dawn,
I laid there
calling for you.
I'm hungry mom.
I'm scared,
please hold me
keep me safe...
"Will someone shut the little FUCKER up!  His fuckin wailing is giving me another fuckin headache!!!"

As time passes
I look for you,
I hold my head up
I roll to tummy
I roll to my back
I roll in circles
I'm searching for you mom
I need to see you...
"Little bastard can't even hold his bottle yet.  He's probably retarded."

And a little later,
on all fours
I'm crawling
after you mom
Pick me up please,
I need to feel you
protecting me
loving me...
"Mommy is ON THE PHONE!  CAN SOMEONE PICK THE LITTLE SHIT UP...NOW!!!"

Standing
on my own
for the first time,
light shining through
outstretched fingers,
my little arms
reaching for you
mom, I'm right here....
"Get OUTTA the WAY, I can't see the TV!  Little fucker's always in the way!"

A little more time passes,
and I'm walking
behind you.
I'm walking in your footsteps
I want to be with you
I want to be just like you mom...
"Jesus H. CHRIST, THE LITTLE BASTARDS ALWAYS UNDER MY FEET!  Go watch TV or something!!"

Running behind you,
the entire world
a magical place,
show me
where I fit in
show me
my place mom...
"FUCKIN A, the little Fucker want's attention, put on that fuckin Barney show.  That always shuts him up."

Many days
have passed mom.
I graduated High School.
I graduated College.
I got married.
I have children.
Not my wife,
nor my children
have to look
for attention...
"Jesus H Christ can't you do ANYTHING right?!?!, Besides pushing those little shit monsters out of your old and stretched out twat!?!?  You're ALL FUCKIN USELESS!!!"

Thank You mom, you made me the man I am.

I started out as just a twinkle...

A small twinkle of hope...