Apr 30, 2008
Apr 29, 2008
Apr 28, 2008
Apr 27, 2008
Apr 26, 2008
Current mood: blessed
To My WIFE...
"Basically, I'm completely smitten with you, and I don't care if I'm making an ass
out of myself, because you've seen me make an ass out of myself a million times, and you still want to be my friend."
Apr 25, 2008
A is for Age - How old are you?
B is for BEER - What's your favorite beer?
C is for Car - What's your dream car?
1969 Corvette Stingray
D is for Dog - What's your favorite dog?
E is for Eggs - How do you like your eggs?
Scrambled with chorizo and tortillas
F is for Flying - Do you like flying in a plane?
Sure do...but if given the time, I'd rather drive. More to see more to do.
G is for Gummy candies - Bears or Worms?
I'm all about the Bear
H is for Hometown - What's your Hometown?
I is for Instrument - What instrument do you play?
I don't play any instrument. I always wanted to learn the piano or the Bass guitar but I never had the money for lessons. BUT I do own a low end Gibson named "Sweetness." Believe me in my hands, the only person she sounds pretty to is me. I can't play a lick on her at all, but she always feels "right" in my big and clumsy ham hocks.
J is for Juice - What's your favorite juice?
I'm all about the OJ...
NO NOT THAT ONE!!
K is for Kill - Who do you want to kill? (figuratively...duh!!)
L is for Lies - Do you lie?
Everyone lies. So I must say
M is for Milk - What's your favorite milk shake?
This Chocolate Banana Milkshake from Steak n Shake
N is for Nothing - Leave this one blank.
O is for Oceans - Have you seen the ocean?
Yes...and I have never felt so small in my life
P is for People - What group of people can you do without?
For this I must refer back to Stupid People
Q is for Quote - What's your favorite quote?
"The point is, the only real tools we have are our eyes and our
heads. It's not the act of seeing with our own eyes alone; it's
correctly comprehending what we see"
R is for Real smiles - What makes you really smile?
S is for snow - Do you like snow?
T is for Time - What time is it?
U is for Underpants - What underpants are you wearing right now?
V is for Vacation - Where do you want to go for vacation?
W is for Weakness - What is your greatest weakness?
X is for X-Rays - What have you had X-Rayed?
Y is for Yes - Yes or no, are you tired of these surveys asking the same questions over and over again?
Z is for Zodiac - What's your sign of the zodiac?
and coming soon ABC's of Me 2
Apr 24, 2008
Apr 23, 2008
Apr 22, 2008
To my Susan,
Three years ago we shared our first kiss,
and I knew at that moment,
that I would spend the rest of my life
sharing my heart that I gave to you,
breathing the air you shared with me
and walking a path that we were meant too.
So to my wife,
I Wish You a Happy Birthday
Apr 21, 2008
I don't care about second-hand smoke or the people that bitch about it.
If you choose not to smoke, fine. That's your right. You have the ability to share and express your feelings, choices and opinions because you live in the U.S.A.. You have the right to designate where you and your like minded cohorts can congregate that appeal to your "cleaner air" regime. I accept that. That's very cool.
I respect your right to speak your mind, share and express your feelings, choices and opinions of where to go and not go.
If you want a non-smoking establishment, they have those.
No one forced you into the smoker friendly places. No one said "See this haze of smoke, through the window, well I got a gun to your head...now go in there damn it and breathe DEEPLY!!"
No one is forcing people to work in them either, they choose to.
You don't want to work with or around smokers then DON'T!
If you don't want to be around it, fine, no one's making you.
But if you choose to say something about it around me, you might as well respect my given right to tell you to "Shut the FUCK up!!! To take you, your views, and your booger hooks and cram them all in the place where male prisoners like to "establish dominance."
But these should all be choices. Not Mandated rules.
If smoking is so bad why won't insurance companies cover the costs to "QUIT SMOKING"?
The powers that be tell us that pot is very very bad...so it's illegal.
The same powers tell us that crack, cocaine and heroin is bad...guess what, that's illegal too.
Those very same voices are telling us that smoking is so bad that they have multi-million dollar a year ad campaigns telling us how bad it is, and that people should stop.
But why do these organizations spend so much money re-informing the population how unhealthy and addictive smoking is yet it's still legal?
I mean I could go all religious here and go..."well god has a plan for all of us." Then why are we interfering? If it was god's plan to have someone die due to smoking, it was his plan, right?
Better yet let's get Darwinian. Only the strong survive, let's cull the weak, survival of the fittest, thin the herd, make more room for the chosen or whatever statement you want to use that means you are better than the rest.
Or I can get mathematical.
6 billion people on this blue planet.
Globally, nearly 5 million premature deaths are caused as a result of smoking.
There are 133 million births each year globally.
That's telling "US" we either need a bigger planet or more smokers.
I smoked for 20 years. I haven't had a cigarette since January. My wife smoked for almost 25 years and she hasn't had a cigarette since December. It wasn't for health reasons that we quit.
It was because we both refused to pay five dollars a pack.
But we sure as hell don't bitch and complain when others do it. It's their choice. One I won't take away from them. So don't you dare take mine.
Apr 20, 2008
Current mood: cheerful
It seems my lovely wife Season lives near a worm hole or has access to a parralle dimension.
We were talking about the upcoming movie "88 Minutes" and I said well if they are going to do this correctly, then the movie has to be at least 120 minutes long so that it can do the story setup and character development.
NOW THIS NEXT PART WAS THE ACTUAL CONVERSATION
"If the movie is 88 minutes long and 90 minutes is an hour and a half, than the movie must be an hour long." says Season
"An hour long?" replies Jose
"Yes" she said with conviction "An hour long."
All I could do was sit there, in stunned silence, quickly jotting down her words so I could share them here.
Apr 19, 2008
"Look at all his dummy thoughts,
they fall into the air,
Look at all the hangman's kids,
twitching in the square.
You take a long walk of hope
that ends in a very short rope.
Needless to say I am wary around the felines now....
Now let me explain why I don't care about this topic.
First the people who are trying to save it.
No matter what we do we are still killing the planet...for HUMAN LIFE. If we want to save the planet for human existence, we have to stop driving cars, trucks, buses, motorcycles, snow mobiles and motor boats. Let's stop using electric and gas mowers. Let's stop using running water, electricity and natural gas in our homes and go back to cutting down 1 tree and replanting 3. Let's us go back to wood stoves and fire places. Let's go back to self sufficient farming, without tractors or combines, but with horses, mules and oxen. Let's give up television, movies, PS3's, PCs, Macs and I-pods. Let's all go outside to work the land and to grow with it. Let's all give up every "convenience" progress has given us and walk away from it.
YEAH LIKE THAT'LL HAPPEN!
That would be the only way we as humans will ever be able to survive the waste we are creating by promoting such things as "Earth Day" and "Think Green." I mean how much energy is wasted to promote one single minute of commercial? You figure that there are
303,824,646 people in the U.S.A.
There are 112.8 million television households in the United States.
So a commercial for it to be successful has to some how reach a large percent of the population correct?
How many TV's is that?
How much energy is wasted so that this broadcast reaches enough people to truly make a real difference and not the "It's so cool and hip to be green" people?
How many people use the internet to send their "green" message? And how much energy does THAT waste?
Sure you drive a hybrid car. BUT you are still wasting all the fossil fuels that goes into designing, engineering, testing, producing and driving it.
Why are you driving anyway? You are thinking "GREEN" shouldn't you be walking or riding a bike or (if you are truly thinking "green") riding a horse, pony or mule. I mean to truly be green wouldn't we have to pretty much live like pioneers?
And I know for a fact we are too self absorbed to make that kind of change. Instead we will waste all kinds of the Earth so that we can make it support human life longer WITHOUT giving up any of the conveniences that progress has afforded us.
NOW THE PLANET...
The planet is 4.5 billion years old.
Dinosaurs were on the Earth for 250 million years.
The first Homo Sapien walked the Earth around 200,000 years ago, but no one is really quite sure about that.
Now I am not a math genius but if you add that together it does not even come close to the age of the Earth.
The Earth does not need saving.
It will outlast us all.
Thank the maker for that.
The only ones that need saving is us...and we're doing a piss poor job of that.
I guess since I know that our Sun will one day consume this planet, and that nothing at all lasts forever, I'd rather think pink than green.
Apr 18, 2008
Apr 17, 2008
Manuel pronounced Mon-wel NOT MAN-you-AL
How big is your bed?
Big enough to have my wife right next to me.
What are you listening to right now?
a mix tape....yeah I said it "A MIX TAPE" that has
Sledding - Uncle Smooth and the Lost Mayans
Killing in the Name Of - Rage Against the Machine
Jealous - Gene Loves Jezebel
Gonna Get it Right - Dogs D'amour
It's Yours (on the level) - Flamboyant Floatboat
Stargazer - Mother Love Bone
Jetboy - New York Dolls
Travolta - Mr. Bungle
Mr. Wendel - Arrested Developement
I'm Cute - Animaniacs
Pigs in Zen - Jane's Addiction
Bop Gun (one nation) - Ice Cube
She's so Fine - Thunder
Spaceboy - Smashing Pumpkins
You're Not Evil - Black Flag
The Sermon - Testament
Right Here Waiting - Richard Marx
What are the last 4 digits in your cellphone number
What was the last thing you ate?
Bacon and Beans
Last person you hugged?
How is the weather right now?
Windy and 70's
Favorite type of Food?
Do you want children?
if it happens cool...if not also cool
Do you drink?
once a week
Ever get so drunk you don't remember the entire night?
dark brown with some salt added for character
Christmas/My Birthday (if it isn't a holiday, it should be)
the one I married
Last Movie you Watched:
What books are you reading?
Night Pleasures by Sherrilyn Kenyon
Just my ears but they have since closed up
OH hell...i don't know...too many to even think about
What were you doing before filling this out?
Putting supper in the oven/reading
Dogs or Cats?
Have you ever loved someone?
YES and I still do
Who would you like to see right now?
that guy from publishers clearing house sweepstakes telling me I just won 25 million dollars
Have you ever fired a gun?
that would be a big oh hell NO!!
Do you like to travel by plane?
sure, but if I have the time I would rather drive
Right-handed or Left-handed?
If you could go to any place right now where would you go?
Back in time
Are you missing someone?
Do you have a tattoo?
Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday mornings?
Are you hiding something from someone?
Are you 18?
almost 2 times that
Did you get enough sleep last night?
First thought waking up this morning?
GOTTA PEE RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!
What do you have handy at your bedside?
if I answer that Season would hit me
Grilled or fried?
WHAT MAKES YOU UNIQUE?
the fact that there is only one of me
Are you afraid of the dark?
no...just the cats that seem to attack in the dark for no reason at all
book sections at Goodwill
3 things you can't live without?
air water food
see the favorite movie answer for this one
What are you afraid of?
WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
why? you won't use any
WHAT IS YOUR DADS MIDDLE NAME?
i gots no clue
WHATS YOUR MOTHERS MIDDLE NAME?
she don't got none
STUCK ON A DESERTED ISLAND & COULD TAKE ONE THING?
a super wal-mart
FAVORITE TV COMMERCIAL?
uhhh...i usually fast forward through them
FIRST THING YOU'LL SAVE IN A FIRE?
well that depends on where the fire is, what's burning, who's around me and what the circumstances are..
WHATS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR?
WHAT ARE THE THINGS YOU ALWAYS TAKE WITH YOU?
thoughts ideas and a sarcastic wit
WHAT DID YOU WANNA BE WHEN YOU WERE A KID?
WHAT DO YOU USUALLY DO WHEN THE CLOCK TURNS 11:11?
i guess there is supposed to be some kind of significance to this time...but usually i really don't care
THE COLOR OF YOUR BED SHEET?
yellow...it hides the pee stains
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT BEFORE YOU GO TO BED?
"boy am I tired"
Apr 16, 2008
Apr 15, 2008
Apr 14, 2008
And If life hands you a lemon, you're supposed to make lemonade, correct?
So than, what do you do when life keeps handing you happiness?
I'm not a very nice person (I have ex's who can attest to that).
If someone pisses me off i.e. a person who I thought was a friend and turns out that they did not trust me enough to come with me about something, I'm still nice and pleasant to them.
If a somebody says things about me (race, religion. etc. etc.) that has nothing to do with my personality or generalizes me as nothing but a race, religion etc., I still treat then the same way.
You see before Season I would have torn into them and let loose the hounds of hell so that they knew without any doubt how I felt. That what was done to me did bother me, but now I don't.
You see I feel sorry for them. Not in the "I pity you fool" sort of way, but in the "man, you'll never get me, and that just sucks" kind of way.
I feel bad for us, because when they do this, all it ends up doing is creating a gap between us. The feelings of friendship are now a chasm that separates us.
I will never talk to them the same way I used too. I will not trust them. They are kept at arms length (and I keep hoping my arms get longer).
Now? Well now, the people who do hurt me will never know what their unkind words did.
Instead they get my bogus smile and laugh and a false friend who is keeping his enemies close.
But some how and for some reason, I have the affection and love from the woman who has married me. She looks at me like I really matter and still listens to me, as if my words could move mountains.
She has blessed my life with conversation, with silly topics and the serious discussions. I am fortunate to have a partner, a friend and a wife who wants to share her life with me.
The strength we share, has allowed me to face many of my demons, no matter how ugly they were. She stood by me and still looks at me with love filled eyes.
I thought this was just stories and lies, but here I stand. A believer that true love exists. And that it can keep growing day by day.
So I'm looking at the apple pie and lemonade in front of me. And I'm thinking to myself...do I really deserve this? I honestly don't think so, but Season, she makes me feel like I do. So I take a slice of that apple pie and a swig from the lemonade and revel in the fact that it really is OK to be happy. That it is really OK to find bliss in the person next to you.
That happiness is not a mat that sits on your doorway, but the key that opens the door to a future you never looked towards.
So with that I remain simply...
a happy fool
Apr 13, 2008
Today I felt a true anguish that shook me down to my core. I felt a sense of loss.
A true loss, not the "Oh crap where are my car keys' feeling, but the "Oh shit, something in me just died" kind of loss. This time it was very different.
It was the "am I really allowed to be this happy" kind of feeling.
I am with a partner who loves me what I feel for her can only be described as bliss. But at the same time I ask myself "Can I make her truly happy?"
I don't know. I don't have all the answers. I can't even pretend to have them. All I know is that I feel so complete when I am with her.
There used to be this HUGE pool of anger that bubbled and boiled deep inside of me.
Now I only find hope, love and a wonderful feeling called tomorrow. I pray that I can give her this everyday. Because inside of my strange little soul I find it whenever I hear her heart beat or whenever she smiles at me. I find myself happier than ever before in my pitiful existence.
For some reason today after watching the fall of fictional character, I find myself wondering. Do I make her happy? Do I make her feel complete? Do I do to her what she does for me? Can I save her?
I don't know, maybe I'm just being stupid, it's something I do a lot. I still wonder "am I what she has been searching for?"
I guess that's all I really wanted to say. She makes my world, my life and my soul complete. I just pray that I do the same thing for her.
Apr 12, 2008
Apr 11, 2008
I have faced that train of thought on many occasions. I feel the way the tracks shake and rumble and I hear the metal shrieking. I see the light approaching me as all the noise and chaos start to confuse and terrify my very soul. I have two choices right now. I can jump or stand.
I can jump to the side and watch as each fragment of time screams by, like a voyeur to my own life.
Or, I can stand motionless, with open arms, welcoming and relishing each and every moment as it pummels against me. All the good and all the bad, that has befallen me, for which I am grateful. It has shaped me into the man, the saint, the sinner, and the asshole that I am.
But on this day I am here to thank those that did me a favor. I am here to thank those that tried to break me.
It may seem strange to be thanking all the people who I should be hating. Although without them I'd be looking at the world and slowly counting away the days till I cease to exist. To become nothing but a smear on the tapestry of life.
Why is that? Because those people who tried to tear me down, in turn, built me up.
Every part of my soul and sanity that was stripped away, became the very same pieces I used to rebuild myself.
The more they tried to kill the person I was, the more they steered me into becoming the man I'm supposed to be.
Now here I sit. A stronger, saner and very honestly a greater man for it.
So with that said, this goes to all the people who tried to make me less. Whether you wanted too or not, you made me more, and for that, I thank you.
Apr 10, 2008
When You Come Back To Me Again Again by Garth Brooks
When You Come Back To Me Again
02. Last thing you bought?
For the house groceries
For my own selfish needs Matilda by Roald Dahl
03. Last person you argued with?
04. Do you put Butter before putting the peanut butter on?
Only on my frozen waffles
05. One of your stuffed animals' names as a kid?
Nicky---it was a teddy bear
06. Did you ever own at one time a Barenaked Ladies Cd?
07. Favorite day of the week?
08. Favorite Sundae topping?
09. Did you take Piano lessons?
Nope...but I wish I did
10. Most frequent song played?
Right now...it would be
Into the Clear and Don't Stop Living in the Red by Andrew W.K.
Callin All the Angels by Train
Free by Shotgun Messiah
Big Wave and Given to Fly by Pearl Jam
Ray of Light by Madonna
Bad Day by Fuel
Breakin Down by Skid Row
Can't Stop Loving You by Van Halen
Good-bye Horses by Q Lazuras
Holy Water by Big and Rich
I Walked With a Zombie by Wednesday 13
Life is Beautiful by Sixx A.M.
Lips of an Angel by Hinder
Mercury by Moloko Shivers
Metalingus by Alter Bridge
Over You by Daughtry
Summer Song by Joe Satriani
Shooter and Time is Now from WWE Themes
they're on my mp3 playa and a "must listen to" folder on my pornado chaser.
11. T.V. show you secretly enjoy?
12. Would you rather play basketball or hockey?
13. Date someone older or younger?
Neither...the wife might have somethng to say about that
14. One place you could travel right now?
15. Do you use umbrellas?
16. Do you know all the words to the Canadian national anthem?
Canada has a national anthem...for real??
just kidding...and no I don't know the words
17. Favorite Cheese?
The one I cut
18. The Smith's or the Cure?
Depends on how dark my mood is.
19. Do you prefer Blondes or Brunettes?
20. Best job you ever had?
Working for Jef Parker when he owned the comic shops
21. Did you go to your high school prom?
22. Perfect time to wake up?
When you're not tired anymore
23. Perfect time to go to bed?
When you're tired
24. Do you use your queen right away in chess?
usually by the 6th move
25. Ever been in a car accident?
that I caused no
26. Closer to mom or dad...or neither?
27. What age is this exciting life over for you?
28. What decade during the 20th century would you have chosen to be a teenager?
29. Favorite shoes you have EVER owned?
Cons ERX 200
30. Do you have an article of clothing you have had since you were in high school?
YEAH...like 25 different concert Tees
31. Were you in track and field?
NOPE I was a
32. Were you ever in a school talent show?
33. Have you ever written in a library book?
34. Allergic to?
Some animal Dander and pollens
35. Favorite fruit?
36. Have you watched sex and the city?
37. Baseball hat or toque?
I would actually prefer my Cowboy hat
38. Do you shampoo first in the shower or soap?
and if you're not a Ranma 1/2 fan you'll never get this joke
39. Wet the toothbrush or brush dry with the toothpaste?
40. Pen or pencil?
41. Have you ever gambled at a casino?
Played at a casino yes
42. Have you thrown up on a plane?
43. Have you thrown up in a car?
Well technically I was in the car but my head was out the window
44. Have you thrown up at work?
45. Do you scream on roller coasters?
46. Who was your first prom date?
Umm that's a good question
47. Who was your first roommate?
a lad named Lucas
48. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk for the first time?
49.What was your first job?
that I got paid for...
would be walking a dog
50. What was your first car?
1972 Dodge Coronet Pea Green...Paid $300 for it never drove itand sold it for $750 which I never saw because Step dad drank it away
51.When did you go to your first funeral?
When I was 13
52. How old were you when you first moved away from your hometown?
53. Who was your first grade teacher?
54. Where did you go on your first airplane ride?
El Paso, Texas
55. When you snuck out of your house for the first time, who was it with?
I was by myself and I went to see Star Wars at the Pix Cinema
56. Who was your first Best Friend and are you still friends with them?
Umm...No clue..and I would have to say no
57. Where did you live the first time you moved out of your parent's house?
When I moved out I moved into a place with the above mentioned roomate
58. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day?
59. Who's wedding were you in the first time you were a bridesmaid or a groomsmen?
60. What is the first thing you do in the morning?
Well technically I look at the clock and say "Well it's 12 A.M...and I made it through another one
No that's not my alarm clock but that is what I do
61. What was the first concert you attended?
10-30-1985......Mecca Arena, Milwaukee, WI
62. First tattoo or piercing?
Piercings are both ears twice (since closd up)
tattoo would be a black and red ying yang with the comedy/tragdey faces in it
63.First celebrity crush?
Maria from Sesame Street
ironically...I just learned that her name is NOT Maria but Sonia Manzano