I TOOK MY FIRST STEP TODAY

reprinted from 6/8/04

I TOOK MY FIRST STEP TODAY


i took my first step today.

the same as i did tomorrow,

i tripped yet i stood up,

than got back down to fall again,

the sidewalk gets smaller the closer i converge,

i'm nearly to my destination,

only to realize i never left,

i looked down at the sidewalk,

only to see the sky looking up at me,

i was walking nowhere,

getting farther than ever before,

i was losing my sanity,

only to stay insane,

I took my first step today.

different than i did yesterday,

i walked off the sidewalk,

to find myself already there,

to ask myself

'what took you so long?'

only to respond

'i was found but now i'm lost',

i laughed at myself,

'you were caged, now you're free'

i said,

'being free is frightening'

was my reply,

'yeah it is'

i answered

'but feeling "anything" is new to you',

'i felt things before'

i countered,

'you never felt alive or free before'

i retorted,


i took my first step today.



than i took my second.




than i took my third...